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This morning, I had a very interesting realization. When I woke up, I realized that during the past couple of months, I would always manage to wear a smile on my face when I meet the morning sun. Each time I face the morning sun, my eyes would put on these amazing sparkles. But now, now I think to myself that one of these days, I know I’ll have to wake up without you being there. When that time comes, will the morning sun still see the smile and the sparkles or will it have to dry my tears? And if ever the morning sun asks why the tears, I’ll just have to answer that this too, shall pass. I won’t have to explain anything else. In time, when the heavy weight my heart
carries becomes lighter and when the hurt in my heart becomes nothing
but a memory, the morning sun will be the first to know that I’ve
healed. The glow in my eyes  will be back and the first one to be able to see it will be the morning sun.

ネイサン・あえなくて、とてもさびしい。

Merry Christmas everyone! …and also…Have a Glorious New Year! =)

ya know, 1 of the things that i hate in this world are egocentric people. if you’re not very familiar w/ the word "egocentric" or "egocentrism", lemme give you a definition (from wikipedia)..

egocentrism: it is defined in 2 ways — 1, the incomplete differentiation of the self and the world (including other people) and 2, the tendency to perceive, understand and interpret the world in terms of the self. the term is derived from the greek "egô", w/c means "I". an EGOCENTRIC PERSON has NO THEORY OF MIND (cannot put himself in other people’s shoes) and BELIEVES EVERYONE SEES WHAT HE SEES (or that what he sees in some way exceeds what others see).

get it? got it? good! wait! may dugang pa ko!

research shows that egocentrism is shown mostly in younger children (since they are unable to separate their own beliefs/thoughts/ideas from others). huh? then why the hell do i see it in most adults? ya know, hmmm, lemme see, may example ko! =) EGOCENTRIC PERSON is placed in a room (w/ other people) and wants to play pusoy-dos. others in the room don’t want to play pusoy-dos. suddenly, VICTIM PERSON walks into the room and as friendly as this person is, indulges the EGOCENTRIC PERSON. EGOCENTRIC PERSON feels very affirmed and thinks VICTIM PERSON wants his company w/out confirming any of his thoughts. EGOCENTRIC PERSON just assumes that the other people in the room also feel the same way he does about VICTIM PERSON. for me? a very dangerous (humiliating) situation. why? for the reason that VICTIM PERSON could have just been acting out of friendliness but without any malice attached to the action. but of course, EGOCENTRIC PERSON could always think what he wants to think, see, and believe what he wants to believe.

to sum it all up, egocentric people have no mental ability to comprehend that other people may have different beliefs from themselves. sometimes, you don’t have to take things at face value. look for underlying reasons and always recognize the possibility of misinterpreting and misrepresenting of others’ actions.

bato2x sa langit, ang tamaan..buklan eh! hehe. thank you for reading. =)

PS: if you’re a man, don’t trust your gut feeling. for the simplest reason that you don’t have any. only women do.

How fast time flies I may say! My gosh, it’s been what? Like 7 months already since I graduated? Wow! And now I get to go to work! How fascinating! Haha! Just joking. Gosh, parang hindi ko carry. Huhu! I mean, living in a clearly strange place without my family. So sad. But I’m glad I have friends in Cebu (that’s where I’ll be working by the way). I’ve considered them as family ever since the world began and they will always be family. So tomorrow I’ll be leaving for Cebu. Just for a week though. For work orientation and apartment-hunting. And I’ll be moving there this November! My goodness, I think I’m gonna cry. Sige lang ah, life goes on and I know I have to do this and so I will! A little sacrifice, that’s all. Wala na ko may mahimo. Actually, right now, I wanna write about something but I can’t get myself to think straight. I’ve got a lot of things going on in my mind kasi eh. Daw ga blur na gani kis-a panulukan ko because I forget to breathe! I wanna write something about Palmistry but I don’t know where to start. I really find it interesting bi eh. OK, indi na lang ko mag blog about that ah, kapoy panumdom. Kapoy bala panumdom pirmi! Hehe. I’ll just end this now. Ay, kung sin-o da ang may Sun nga sim, message me, wala lang, hehe, basta ah. Ay, I don’t think I’ll be able to go online for a week so if you guys need to contact me, try my cell. Pwede sa Sun or pwede man sa Smart. Vavooshka!

i’m truly blessed..good people, ‘er, wonderful company surround me all the time..it doesn’t hurt to laugh once in a while, eh? as manang titor would say.."ilis-ilis lang"..haha! daw sentence after sentence, daw ga layo nga ga layo ang topic..each sentence doesn’t have anything to do with the other sentences..pras lang na bala kung ga mahjong ka, may tiles gid na ya nga magabutan mo nga nag-iisa (may sariling mundo ba), inang wala gid ya relationship with your other tiles..hehe..amu na ginsulat ko d..daw wala gid pulos..hehe..wala lang..pro one thing i know for sure..kung ang buhay ay weather2x lang, ang mahjong diri sa balay ay ilis2x lang..bwahahahaha! ambot sa indi ka relate.. *wink*

look out pinas…ang dyosa ng kagandahan uuwi na!!! hahaha!!!

always get me down…chos, nag kanta pa, hehe…haaay! this morning, i had to wake up because i had to go to the bathroom, thinking that it was like 3AM until i looked at the clock which read 6AM…it was so dark and it was raining hard! well, it’s still raining now and i just love it! because ari ko sa balay, hehe…i’m tellin’ you, i don’t mind staying at home when it’s raining…i mean, i just want to stay under the covers all day long! hehe…going out means getting wet and getting all messy…and the thing is, everytime it rains, i always crave for batchoy and siopao…i don’t know why! halin gid na ya sang una! hehe…oh, and this morning too! when i woke up, mom and i saw a poor little bird on our deck with its beak up…the helpless tiny bird looked like it was calling for its mommy or it looked like it was hungry…since it was raining, we felt so bad because the bird might get cold, hehe…and we didn’t know what to feed it, we didn’t have bread anymore! nice timing huh? we just took a plant pot with tiny holes on it and covered the bird with it so it won’t get cold, hehe…kalu-oy gid ya! as in! and then we remembered what happened yesterday…at around 5PM, when it started to rain and get cooler, a lot of birds flew over the house, probably heading to a warmer place…there was about a hundred of ‘em and it looked spectacular! and this poor guy on our deck probably got left behind since it was too small to catch up on the others…i feel so bad! anyway, i just hope it doesn’t rain by the time i get to the philippines so i can have fun!

12 more days to go before I get to go home again! I always go home to the Philippines for business. I mean, I never go home for pleasure. For the past 5 years, I’ve been going home for school. And now, I’ll be going back home for work. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but in the previous 5 sentences, the word "home" exists in each sentence. Weird, indi ko man hungod, hehe, it just came out, haha. For the sake of putting sense to the nonsense I’ve just started, the Philippines really is my home. May it be for business or pleasure, it still is home. And home is where the heart is. Chos! Hehe. Inta2x eh, hehe. Daw linya sa movie, haha! But you have to admit, the best gid ya ang Pinas kay sadya gid to ya! Haha! Didto ko nag dako mo, hehe, pabor2x.

…and so the COUNTDOWN begins! in 3…2…1…Go! 30 more days to go! Woohoo…Happy August!